Glacier

Glacier

It's amazing

how much Pain

Bleeds through

the Numbness

of Watching

Someone

You Love

Turn into

a Stranger

Right in front

of You -

of Watching

an entire Life

Slip

and slide Off...

an entire familiar Face

Crumble

and Disappear

into Dust

and Ice

- HB

1.5.18

Just Gone

Just Gone

Like a Comet

In the Sky 

of your Life

that you May

or may Not

have been Tracking

One day

it tears Through

 and decimates

your Whole world

leaving nothing

but a crater

to stare Into

Numb

in Shock

you glaze Over

Remembering

All that was there

the entire Ecosystem

just Gone

all that was Built

all of the plans

Sometimes

closing your Eyes

you try to See

in the Globes

of your tears

the Ghosts

of what could have been

but the Worlds fall

on the Empty ground

Echoing

in the ashes

Just

Gone

-HB

7/20/17

Rumination: Pain

It's been a long time since I've posted - let's see how habitual this is this time.

Having been through a fair share of it, and ruminating on the healing if it today, this came:

Pain does not live in a space of Time.

It does not fade with the ticking of the clock.

Pain can only ever dissipate if heard,

acknowledged, 

understood, 

and given a tourniquet of Hope for healing.

What's All This? What's All This?

Multiverses, PhynxPhyrVisions 

Aloha Everyone,

We've all been going through massive shifts for years now, yet lately the times are alternating between blips of bliss and super-intense it seems. I had gotten the urge to post about some of this a couple of weeks ago, yet I myself am going through these shifts and had found it difficult to put into words.

In short, many of us are feeling very "out of it", some say "stoned", "loopy", "spacey", "foggy", etc., etc., etc. Also, many of us are expereincing insomnia (either trouble getting to sleep or sleeping for a brief period and then waking around 2 or 3am and not able to get back to sleep), coupled with when we do finally get to Dreamland, it's a place of mundane, difficult issues and sometimes nightmares.

Part of what is going on is that there has been some really, really intense clearing going on, on a planetary level. As we know, when we do a deep cleaning of a space, the dust flies up. This is similar to what is happening... as this intense cleaning is happening (of really deep-seeded patterns, wide-scale beliefs, etc., like - for instance - Karma itself and Duality... You know, minor things. Nothing to see here), a giant "band" of energetic "dust" is hovering as we let more and more of this go, and more and more clearing is done. So, imagine the planet with this giant layer of dust around it. That's what it looks like. Keep in mind as well, that as these giant systems, etc., are being released, our connections with people and things based on these systems is also being released. For example, you may hear from people you haven't heard from in a while. Congratulations, most likely you or they have felt the release of Karma. Or, you have some conscious work to do. Don't overthink it, though, it's releasing anyhow, for everyone. Just let it go. Trust yourself and flow with what works and what is in your heart. Any of these releases could lead to anything. Trust and Follow.

The clearing-and-upgrading that is happening is most of where the insomnia/tiredness originates. The insomnia is the waves of "new"/"upgraded" energy is coming in, and the tiredness can be attributed to a few things (more on that below). This "new" energy is very crystalline, clear, quick and "buzzy". We are being flooded with more Light, and so as this comes in and fills in, we then are more of this "buzzy", etc., energy. Or, rather, I should say that as we are more receptive to it, it happens. Mostly we are more receptive just before or during sleep, hence the can't-get-to-sleep or I've-just-woken-up-at-2am-and-cannot-get-back-to-sleep. With these new upgrades, the body may have a small kine freak-out. It's important that you take care of your physical needs and - if you are able to - have a conversation with your body. Try to put it at ease. Anyone who has done work with their inner child will find this easier to do - just... talk to your body. It will answer.

As for the clearing part, this is being done by many, many, MANY beings who are here to help, and by some of us on other levels of Being. We have many, simultaneous levels of Beingness, and some of us have volunteered to help with this. This may account for some of you and feeling tired.

Some of the feeling tired, however, is when you get caught up in this "hovering" band of energy, and the energies around it. There is A LOT going on with this releasing, including a fight-type energy. There are some who don't want these old systems, patterns and beliefs to go, so there is a level of "fight" and of "pulling", also some of the "chicken-little-sky-is-falling", nutty coo coo type energy. If you are feeling this, take a look at it, objectively. Is this a part of you not letting go of the systems, etc., or are you getting swept up in the "after-current" energies of the wave of clearing? Are you clinging to the wave as it tries to go by, or are you in the whitewash? See which it is for you, and step back. Recognize what is best for you. You may realize that this is not you at all - neither the wave nor the whitewash - and just need some distance and centeredness. Or, even, just rest and a nap. Some food. Basics. Again, have a conversation with your body. Some of this could be just that your body is having a freak-out, and needs to know it's o.k. Which, it is. Just see what it needs to feel better.

As for the Dream Space, the "dust band" of energy that is being created is also where we are getting stuck when we try and travel in Dreamtime. Some of us are hitting this band of energy and staying there, hence the "mundane", "difficult issues" and sometimes "nightmare" dream experiences. We are - on an energetic level - getting stuck in not only our "stuff" being released, but the planetary and everyone's "stuff"...so... you may be getting caught in either one of those things as well. Try reinforcing your connection to Source and really just acknowledging that line of energy right before you sleep. Ask for help in getting to a better plane of Experience in Dreamtime. See what happens.

As we go through all of this, keep it simple. There are many, many planetary alignments and shifts happening as we go through this as well. Our solar system is moving through a part of the Multiverse that is has not been to in thousands upon thousands of years. It is part of this Great Clearing. It is o.k. Many feel what you are feeling, and are experiencing similar things.

It may seem paradoxical, yet this is also the time to write down what you want to create for your Experience of Life. As these patterns release, we are Free. We are the Captain of our Ship. With the Karmic scales gone of tit-for-tat, and this-for-that, we are free to create. The "price" of whatever-we-want is no longer relevant. With old and limiting systems gone, we are free to dream a new Experience into being. All of us are our own Multiverses: Beings of Many Dimensions. Each of us, regardless of another, will have our own Experience. Why not create what you want? Sometimes this includes collaboration with a fellow Multiverse. Good! Dream it into being. Write it down. Have fun. Create. Be free. ENJOY.

Hoping this helps and wishing you all the best as we ride this ride!
Aloha,
Holly

The "Gay" and the "Marriage" of It

Pic via www.andyellwood.com

So, Gay Marriage. As this subject spreads across the globe, and through our states here in the U.S. (or, rather, tries to...*AHEM* *cough* HAWAII), I see a few misconceptions that might be blocking this whole process in some areas. Other areas are moving forward, yet some are still blocked. So... Let's review:

One, "Gay" has next to nothing to do with actual sex. "Gay" is who you love. "Sex" is what you have with that person. If you think otherwise, you might ask yourself why you think two straight people get married. Is it because they won the Sex Lottery with each other? Are they standing before everyone they know and proclaiming their love of sex with each other, first and foremost? Likely, no. In most cases, marriage is about love.

Second, "Marriage" is the socially acceptable term for creating a union with someone you love, announcing that love for each other and proclaiming that you will live this life with this partner. Unfortunately "Marriage" is a religious term, and "Union" has been bastardized by attempts to prop up semi-laws and pretend that they are equal to the rights granted by official "Marriage." So, when many of us say we seek "Marriage", what we really mean is "Equality of All Rights and Privileges Under the Law and the Land." Some of us will want religious ceremonies per whatever religion one is affiliated with. Some of us will want to create our own ceremonies. The bond, however, is there no matter what ceremony is performed (or not).

Third, (continuing on from above) the spiritual aspect of this - Love - is actually not governed by any law or type of ceremony, as hearts are bound in spirit, not paper. Yet, as long as we live here in this human form, these hearts not bound by paper or bodies or any other physical aspect or making of structure, should be granted equal rights. As long as other people have their rights on papers and laws, ALL people should have these rights.

The term we have chosen, as a society, for this joining of two hearts and spirits is "Marriage." It is a term. It is a loose term, with many meanings, per whomever you speak with. So, yes. We seek "Gay Marriage." We seek "Marriage Equality."  If we can all look past the "Gay" and the "Marriage" - terms that we have societally accepted as general labels - and focus on the "Equality", then what, truly, is the problem here? This is not about sex. This is not about religion. This is about the most divine aspect of being human - Love - and about Equality.

Releasing, Blossoming and Receptivity...

Aloha Everyone!

I wrote this yesterday, as a pseudo-journal. As much as I would like to refine it and put it in some sort of order that may or may not make more sense, what came through was organic and makes its own sense in doing so. It follows more of a creative flow, which is non-linear. More of where-we-are-headed (I think), and less intellectual linear-ness. My apologies if it does not make sense in its form as it is written. As I said, it's in-flow, and in the form of how my spirit speaks. My hope is that on some level it will bring hope, awareness and whatever-else-you-may-need-at-this-moment by reading it. 

Enjoy:

These last couple of days have been interesting… Today I cannot stop between eating and drinking tea, and am beyond tired. 

Yesterday I felt a bone-cold chill most of the day, which I was shown was the cold of the cosmos… that I (and others) were feeling the actual cold that is in the stillness of space… that the changes are indeed at our doorstep. I also came home from work, completely passed out on the futon, mid-computering, for two hours… Then laid down on my bed and fell asleep from 7pm-11:30pm, got up, was semi-awake for a half an hour or so, then fell asleep again until 7am. And was still tired all day today. In fact, I will probably go to bed soon (it's 6:30pm). (For those of us who are energetically sensitive to the shifts happening, I am sure you are having your own version of this. For those of you that have not yet been sensitive, this is what you can look forward to. LOL)

Besides all of that, so many things were huge yesterday. Working backwards a bit, before I fell asleep the first time on the bed, I was in the in-between state (not asleep but not awake… It feels to me like a heightened state, actually, of being very aware and in or just above the body, but just… well… in-between states). I was super aware of an angelic or benevolent presence that looked a lot like the energy in the pictures I took at Akaka Falls just two days before. There was no humanoid shape (if anything, closer to an orb), just a magenta and rainbow energy, and they facilitated upgrades, grid work, etc. on me. It was very cool to see all of the interconnecting energy lines (but, less lines and more like whispy arteries or mesh or something…like what you see in the natural world a lot - the inner workings of things and connected tendrils). I knew and had the solid sense that huge shifts were going on, and could feel them energetically and physically as well.

Even before this during the day, lots of things were happening… In the morning I was moody and could not pinpoint what it was, exactly. Through the day and through a text with a best friend, I found that I was getting ready to process a huge piece and blockage that had been there for a long time. 

It had started to break loose - or, rather, the initial hammer had hit - the night before. I had gone to dinner with a couple of friends, and had a great time. There was laughing, there were women dressed up (myself included, from work), and there was winking. A couple of times. Now, my one friend is a winker. I am not in like with her in that way, and she is not with me. The hammer, however, struck me because although I have had my crushes or likes or whatever-label-you-want-to-call-them-for-me-liking-people-and-they-not-returning-the-like, it's been years since I've had a dinner with an attractive, dressed-up woman who winked at me… or had any kind of female attention that I allowed to be serious or received. Perhaps before I've not been in that setting and been in as receptive of a space as I am now. 

The point of this piece is that it truly was the hammer that begun to knock loose something within me that I had forgotten was there, and now I am able to actually have on a different level. I had a few huge moments of release of grief for not having had an actual, mutual connection with a woman in years… even through a few relationships… for not having had that depth of care and tenderness, and for not having been receptive to that until probably right now. I have longed for it my whole life, yet only now have I come to a place where I can have it - where I can receive it. I felt a huge wall crumble and fall yesterday - I literally saw a huge stone wall fall down in/from my space energetically. 

It is also only now that I have reached a space of having a deep caring and a tenderness for myself… that I see myself as precious and through all of the grief and letting go yesterday, I had and have such a tenderness… a preciousness and a compassion for myself in this. I truly want for myself to have this experience of a beautiful, tender relationship. To give and receive all that is in my heart and theirs. I just… see myself and have a great care of myself that I haven't before. I am still me, yet also can be outside of myself and hold this compassion and preciousness for myself. It is an amazing space to be in… I have still not processed it all, and things are shifting and integrating… yet I feel I am ready now. I have a solidarity that I am ready now for my Partner. I hold this tenderness for myself, for me to have it…and I hold a preciousness for myself to wait for it because I am sacred unto myself. Through all that my life has been, and is, and will be… I hold myself sacred. With the big fat mess in certain areas of my life that it is right now, it is o.k. It is nothing more than a messy room. It will be messy for a while, or not, but I am not my messy room. I am a sacred child of the Universe, and I am as powerful and as precious as a shining star. 

I wish that all of us are able to get here - to this space. For even before this space and beyond this space we are able to see this in each other as well. That we are all precious, powerful, shining stars. 

Much Love to All,

Holly

The Distracted Superhero

(*photo credit to Gerald Parel)

Lately there have been a couple of themes that weave together. The first is distraction, the second is our Superhero Selves. If we are in a state of distraction, we deny not just ourselves of Who We Are, but we deny the World this gift as well.

I have seen several examples around me lately - in brilliant people - a massive amount of distraction energy. People spinning around like tops, or jumping from one thing to another to another to another with a dizzying speed. At least that is what it looks like from the outside. While being a witness to this (and noticing my own ways of doing this), some very powerful communication has come through.

While observing the examples, the communication came through in somewhat different ways for each person yet the theme remained the same: We must stop these distractions. Not very long ago - even just as this year was beginning - the ol' "The Universe is Guiding me", and an amorphous, go-with-the-flow attitude was more the norm for us in the "woo-woo" circles. This, however, is no longer the time for that. The Universe is not guiding us. Our choice, in every tiny moment, is what guides us. We can no longer afford to sit and be "floated down the river", because - quite frankly - the energies have changed. If we sit and try to float, we will discover the "float" isn't there as much as a ping-pong, zing-zong, here-then-there energy is happening.

With this it is important to really be aware that there is not anything "out there" that knows better than we do, that is guiding us. We have sovereign choice, and each tiny, little choice changes our direction. It is the rudder on the boat of our life. We choose where to direct the boat, and the winds of the Universe - the Universal Support - will help us along. if we are in alignment with our True Self, we are working with the Universe. We are choosing to direct our "boat" to where we really, truly want to go and the Universe responds with the winds of support.

Many times the Universe is just waiting for us to decide. To just make one little choice that It can support us in. Sometimes we sit and wait in the still, stale air for direction. Other times we make so many conflicting choices and then we wonder why we feel whipped around, with 800,000 choices before us, and then we freeze in the face of so many options. Or, we follow each thing down the rabbit holes that they are and wonder why we are lost.

We are the ones that need to make the decision and choose the direction. The Universe will always, ALWAYS support us! Part of this choosing is to be Who We Really Are, no matter what area that is in - preferably all of them. In this choice, or many tiny choices that build us, we choose to be our own Superhero. Only when we are in our Authentic Self can we really be the heroes we all know we are, deep down. If you don't know this, dig deeper. And don't be afraid of your own depths.

The importance of being this Authentic Self is great and vast, especially at this time of Energetic Change on our planet. To be our Selves - to become our own Superhero - is to literally save the world. But it is not about one Superhero or one Great Teacher or one Way of Believing or one of anything, except for the One that all of us collectively create by being our Authentic Selves. This is one of the ways that we will save our planet... or, in other words, to help our plant to the next level of Light. And, truly, if you are not about saving the world... then save your own, individual world - your life.

Imagine if Superman had simply spent his time on Facebook or watching t.v. all day, or got lost in a bottle every day (or any number of other distractions), forgetting he was Superman... and then decided that he wasn't Superman after all... that Clark Kent never put on that cape, that he never became Superman...that Wonder Woman never jumped into that invisible jet and picked up that lasso of Truth? Now, I fully realize that Superman and Wonder Woman are  character (or at least is not in this dimension as those particular characters), yet - what if? What if YOU never put on your cape, or picked up the Truth, never volunteered at the shelter, never did what you truly felt in your heart you were meant to? How would you be robbing the world? How DO you rob the world now by not simply being Who You Are? By not sharing what is in your heart? By not sharing YOU? How amazing and different would the world be if you chose to be You, the True You? How could you save your own world - and change your life - by choosing to be Who You Are, in every moment of every day?

So, this is where choosing Your Self - the solidarity of that choice, and all of the others you make in your life - is of utmost importance. Now is the time. You are the creator of your life. Choose where your rudder points your boat (the Universe will support your Sails). Choose to be your Authentic You today. Choose, today, to save the world... to put on your cape... and to be You. Give that gift to the world. The world can never pay you back for such a great gift as this. You are invaluable. The World is waiting. Choose. It is time to drop all of the distractions, and put on that cape...to hold up and uphold your Truth.

May the Compass in your Heart be your Guide
May your Choices be Solid and on your Course
And may the Winds of Universal Support be Forever Yours,

Holly

(*photo credit to www.desktopgirls.com)

Focus vs. Receptivity

If you are waiting for something to happen before you begin what you want to do, it will never happen. If you are waiting for the right time, the right person, the right circumstances, you could be waiting forever.

Iyanla Vanzant 

Happy Solstice Day, Happy Day-of-Most-Light! 

While scrolling through my wall I saw the above status and picture via Iyanla Vanzant on Facebook this morning, and both struck me. The quote - to me - speaks of being so much in a state of receptivity, that you fail to act. It is one end of the spectrum. In many of my readings lately, and just noticing of the energies now, we must switch gears a bit. We must start to move about our lives in a different way. This is no longer the time of (strictly) "wait and see". Just even two years ago we were still in a bit of a holding pattern with energy, a state of mostly waiting to see what comes. We were, at the same time, still of the consciousness of having to "focus" and "go after" what we really wanted. There was a bit of a fight with the energies. 

Currently, those are balancing out... Both of those "feet" are learning their rhythm together, to dance our way through life rather than swing from inactivity to super-active. Petal-to-the-metal, then slamming on the brakes and idling for a while. Things are becoming more fluid. It is time to really be IN WITH the flow, not just to go with the flow. 

So much information has come through lately in regards to shifting from focusing on something as a way of manifesting. In the olden times (you know - the denser times... even up to a few years ago), the "way of getting things done" was to focus, focus, focus. It was a laser beam of intellect and intention, coupled with the force of "going for it" and being relentless. We are completing a movement into energies where this will no longer work as well, or at least there is an easier way. The energies we are moving into are more in alignment with having a thought of something that you want, allowing it to be, letting it go, and then watching how it comes into your life. The lesser amount of focus you have, the quicker it comes in. It is not about staring at a particular doorway in a hallway to see what is coming, but about realizing that you are not even in a building in the first place. 

The miracles are happening at such a pace right now - there are miracles all around us, if we just looked up for a minute and saw them, recognized them. The picture above is so profound in this sense. What the image says to me is to look up and see that the train is right in front of you, ready to take you where you are reading about. If she would just look up for one moment, the miracle is so huge and so right in front of her, that she is missing it. 

Sometimes the obvious things are the miracles we are looking for. But it is time to widen our gaze. It is time for less focus and more trust. It is time for intention, then allowing. The balance between focus and receptivity. Have an intention of what it is you want, then allow it to come in ways you could not imagine. Put down the toy. Stop tinkering. Simply see what you want, or speak it, and allow. The energies are so ripe right now for manifestation - you will be amazed at how fast things appear. This is truly the time of Magic! 

All of the things we saw and read about in The Secret movie and/or book are truly coming to pass now. It is of utmost importance that we shift our thoughts to the positive - to be absolute in what it is that we want, and let go of what we don't want. Notice what it is you don't want, perhaps, but use it only as a reference point for what you do want. You may notice so many things you do not want (i.e., "I don't want a partner who cheats on me"), but we don't have time for this anymore. We must notice it, and shift it (i.e. "I want a partner who is trustworthy, honest, and honors me and our relationship"). 

It is time for us to go deeper. Anyone can look a the surface of something and decide they don't like what it looks like, but what DO you like? Get to the root of it, and then declare it to the Universe/God/The Big Burrito In The Sky. 

Amazing things are happening, people! We are living in SUCH amazing times, if we only allow ourselves to see it. We are living in Times of Magic... We are truly creating our lives and our realities. 

SO! What Magic are you going to allow into your experience today? What Miracles are you willing to see? What Amazement are you co-creating with The All That Is today?

Have fun! Enjoy! Shine!
In the Magic of All That Is,
Holly

P.S. Just as an example, as I edit this post and am ready to "publish", "This Magic Moment" came on via Pandora, on a station that has no business playing that song. Hilarious! =)

Gratitude Always

Aloha Everyone,

Over the last few years, my family and I have had more than their/our fair share of loss: One of my best friends, my best friend's father, my grandfather, my grandmother, then step grandmother passed... Then my father's oldest brother last year, and now my mother's older/oldest sister. All of these losses have gifted me with a shift in perspective and have opened me up in ways that I would not have had without them.

In watching my friends and family pass on through these last few years, I have observed a few things. One is that we never know when it is someone's time to go... Even when we know they are going, we never really know the last time we will see someone. We never know when that last moment will be.

It is of the utmost importance that we be gentle with each other. It is of the utmost importance that not just in those moments when they slip beyond the veil, that we are kind. That we hold them in the highest and purest form of grace, gratitude, love and forgiveness. In these moments just before they cross over, they are being birthed into a new Light, into a new way of being. This, in many ways, is their birthday! We must celebrate their transition and celebrate who they were in this life to us. Before they leave, we must wish them well on their journey and tell them that we love them, that they have enriched our lives, that we are grateful that they have been here and been a part of our lives.

What is most important about this is that we not wait until these last moments, if we are lucky enough to know that last moments are last moments. Every tiny moment of this life counts. Every moment is a moment to choose to see someone as the brilliant spirit that they are, to thank them (if even just mentally) for their contribution in our lives. Every goodbye is a chance to say "I love you" and "thank you for being in my life"... to say "thank you for being you, and for all you have given me just by being you."

All of us enrich each other. Even that guy that cut you off on the freeway... there is something there for us to see, if at the very least it is to see through the illusion and see that maybe they are just having a bad day. That this little piece is not all of them.

What I have expanded upon from these losses is just this: Every one of our days and moments is full of opportunity to see the light in someone - to acknowledge that - and to see beyond anything else that is not that. To allow everyone their own experiences and be in that state of allowing for all things. To know that what anyone else does is their own experience, and hope that it fills them up with joy. To wish everyone well, and to especially be in a state of gratitude for everyone who has been in your life - from the smallest to the-very-center-of-your-heart. This is not a piece of cake sometimes, but it is important to just try and remember... to start to shift to this perspective.

Express to someone your gratitude for them today. Tell them you love them. Acknowledge something that they have contributed to your life. Celebrate them when it comes to mind to do so, and mean it. Come from your heart and see them - who they really are - and the gift that they are to your life.

As my aunt readies herself to pass, I feel the excitement of her next step on a spirit level. I thank her for being the amazing being she is, for being the loving and supporting aunt she has always been, for her kindness, and for everything she took on for everyone around her. I thank her for all that she has been, and wish her the best ever on her journey ahead. I celebrate her life and her love, and I thank you - Maryanne - for who you are.

Love to All,
Holly

Limitations, Jealousy and a Scorpion

Aloha Everyone!

Today was an eventful day, for a clean-the-house/wrap-things-up day in my pajamas. While cleaning, some information came to me in regards to limitations and jealousy. Now - I have had my fair share of jealousy and limiting beliefs... Quite a bit of this has fallen away recently, yet I acknowledge the layers thing - that cycles come and layers fall away, and all is a process.

Back to the jealousy and limitation. So the energy of Jealousy stems from lack - any time you look at someone and say, "I wish I had that" or whatevers, and that ugly-gooey comes up, it is simply just a belief in yourself that you do not have whatever-it-is. BUT! What would happen if instead we rejoiced and celebrated with someone who has what we are wanting? What would happen if you placed yourself inside that joy? Like, for reals. Not a "heh heh I am so happy for you", half-hearted kine thing. What if we allowed ourselves pure joy?

What comes naturally for me is to be happy for people. What comes naturally is to be in joy for whatever people are having, and excitement comes when I see someone having what I would like to experience... as long as I have let go of beliefs of lack. If that shadow crosses my heart when I see someone having something I would like to experience, I stop for a moment. I ask myself if I truly want to have that. I look at why I think I cannot have that. I check the lies I have about not being able to have that. And then, usually, all of the limiting beliefs dissolve. I remember that I can have anything I want. I remember that I am the creator in my life. I remember that whatever experience I choose to have, the Whole of the Universe and The Big Burrito in the Sky are supporting me. I speak it and it is so, and so I choose my words and thoughts carefully. If something shows up in my experience that I don't think I "ordered" off the the Menu of Life Experiences, I look at it before throwing a fit about it. Well, most of the time. Sometimes, I forget. And then I remember again. =)

An example: Today I discovered a scorpion in my house - the first live one I have seen here in Hawaii, and I was a bit surprised, but not really. I moved into my new place at the beginning of April, and I moved into a dryer climate of the island where I had heard the scorpions were. Not, you know, the band. The creature. Anyhow. I didn't freak out as much as I thought I would, and I put it in a pyrex, put the lid on, and kept it until I finished doing what I was doing. I knew I shouldn't kill it, and after/during looking up the meaning of "scorpion" online, taking what resonated, asked Spirit what this was about.

First, even before I moved in I asked about scorpions and centipedes and what the deal was with them at this place. Two days after I moved in I found a huge 8-inch centipede in my house. Now I find the 4-inch-or-so scorpion. So... yes. I did ask, "Are there any scorpions here? How are the centipedes?" and they answered in person. So, again... careful with my words.

Second, I have been getting more clear on what I am here to do... at least in part. Part of my purpose is about being a bridge for beings in other dimensions... including spirits who have not crossed over. I have helped a few cross over, and have spoken with other beings in other dimensions, helped to make peace with this dimension and others in various ways. The scorpion is a symbol and confirmation of this, as the scorpion has been a symbol of death, transformation, darkness, power and many other things in different cultures.

So instead of freaking out about a scorpion being in my house, I stopped for just a few minutes. I asked what the messages were. I saw that the scorpion itself was lost, and I let it go outside. And then I sprayed insect deterrent around my house (another energy of the scorpion - protection), courtesy of my neighbor. Baby steps. Asking. Doing. Knowing that I am the creator in my life, and that I am supported no matter what it may look like.

This has been a good day. Insights on lack beliefs, turning those around and living in joy, and a scorpion with a few messages.

May your every day be blessed, and focused upon the knowing that we all have everything we need... and step forward in the knowing that All Is Well.

Happy and Joyful Creating to you!
Holly

P.S. Here it is again, with my hand to show the size a bit better:

Praying Mantis Magic (from January 27, 2012)

So... Today was not the most "with it" day I have ever had. It was more like a not-so-much, I-feel-like-I-am-metamorphosizing-right-in-front-of-your-eyes, gooey-energy day.

Anyhow, I was able to meditate a bit before going back to work towards the end of the day, and stabilize myself a bit. I went to the gas station, and while filling the tank saw this amazing praying mantis sitting on the edge of the trashcan, facing a bit away from me. I said hello mentally, like I usually do to the tiny things in life (and sometimes out loud, depending, but anyhow)... It turned around and looked directly at me, and walked around the edge of the trashcan and just sat looking directly at me. I noticed its left front leg was a bit injured as it walked over. I was thinking that maybe it wanted to come with me, and as I put out my sleeve for it to jump on or no, it flew directly into the car. The door was not all the way open - just a bit but it flew directly in. I thought, "Well. That answers that... and how cool!"

So I drove back to work in the work car, to which this little spirit did not want to get out of quite yet. I saw that maybe it wanted to go to my house, in the green, so I finished up at work and went back to the work car. I put my hand out - again, for it to crawl onto or no. It did, and I took it to my car. On the way to the car it stood on my fingertips, reaching up to the stars, but not flying away. It slept on the passenger seat of my car all the way home, and once there, did not want to be on the coffee plant, nor the banana leaf, but as I was passing the lilikoi vines it reached out for them.

It was such a wonderful experience - helping this spirit to where it wanted to be, and enjoying its company along the way. =)

Just wanted to share the magic... A nice reminder to slow down, listen and find amazement - even at a gas station, on a very "gooey" day. =)